Meet H for a while then hang out with Cindy, stay quite late, I got cold when getting home. My roasted pork is quite salty, not much succesful with it but everybody can eat it except me. Go to work but don't really want. Don't know what I'm really need or really want but sur that I need something or miss something. I 'm not sure n don't know what is my prob. I feel bored a bit n stop contact w aTung for a while , I think he 's tierd w/ me when I stay always passive but it's ok, I need "quiet"

Something wrong , I duno. I feel tierd these days . I'm trying to contact people for my students internship. Talk w/Khanh about the work even dont want n know that Khanh 's mother is sick n she become half paralytic. Sad, troubled,embarassed everytime getting Khanh's new :(  !

 I don't like what she did with me before and w/ K but look at all happen with Khanh, I duno. I want to visit her and talk or share these says w K but I think I shouldn't.  Life is so difficult ! I want everything : good job, good bos, good salary, good colleagues, good familly, big love, good friends ....but you can't have evrything! What's my prob?My job give me a lot of things to do but not so rushed, not so pressure, salary ok ( I can live anyway), good time 4 study, good friends I have just feel somtime that I spend time for sthing stupid coz good direction: not sure ! Big love: duno but 1 thing 4 sur: good familly. Worry about future may be ?

I let hurt my self by K story I think, stupid am I .

Feel better now, I escape from PL project for a while. Now concentrate to organize the camp for teenage in August. Benoit came back to his country. My other cousin is  here but she make me afraid a bit with her problem in  relationship w/ Benoit, then I stop seeing her for a few time. Take a view at My shop, it's not bad , I'm quite interested in  but not sure if I need coz with my job like now...Anyway, will see Sandra soon in August. I think I can escape from Thanh now, ouf, he's make me afraid. Don't know if I will visit Buon Mathuot 1 more time or go to Thailand in Sep ,

Feel  , all my effort to make work better are wrong translated and not approved by my boss, she always mix work with what she want to feel. My demand is not satisfied, I just ask whether our office can make clear status of each person or their responsibility , "who do what"  but my boss told we can't do it because it's social work ???!!!!!.

  I proopose to have meeting with every body to show their difficulty in work and now they considered me like a revolution or I have bad influence from people and I'm a dramatic Queen ?? Why ??? Just a meeting to save the problem and you bcome a Dramatic Queen? Then Thao is invited to participate a meeting, poor lady is attacked by 3 terrible womens experienced, She's crying , I was feeling so bad because Thao can't show the proof, I can't help her ,what I can do I did ...After all, Thao asked to resign and my boss accepte it in front of every staff.

I'm thinking of leaving this office soon end of year, I feel so bad now, I 'm staying here because Ave member 's effort, they want to help poor people and how I can refuse to cooperate with them, but the work won't be improved, no future here, no good relationship,...